Who among us hasn’t ever dreamt of writing or starring in a TV show that is loosely based on the adventures of his or her own life? We are all guilty, and most us never bother to follow through with such a dream because it’s only a “nice thought” and real life “get’s in the way”.
I cannot even count the number of times that I have had been hanging out with close friends and thought to myself, “why aren’t we filming this?” (Probably because no one finds me quite as hilarious as I find myself, for I have an extremely dry and sarcastic sense of humor which I completely acknowledge as an acquired taste.)(Also, it took so much will-power to type “I cannot even” instead of “I can’t even” because I’m so basic.) Back to topic, hindsight is always 20/20, but, also, who honestly knows how to work one of those old school cameras? (I say old school, because I imagine that I couldn’t afford one of the newer, seemingly user-friendly recording devices, so I would have to settle for an archaic piece of equipment that could only be found for cheap at some yard sale, or, even worse, on Craigslist. Actually, since we’re on the topic, you can find some stellar deals and steals on Craigslist… if you’re willing to risk your life. True story, I once heard about this guy who started with a paperclip, or something as minuscule, and eventually traded up for a house. Why can’t that be my life?) Now, some of you out there in the safety of the internet are probably asking, “what about vine?”, or saying, “GoPro’s aren’t that expensive, Shawn.”. Well, here are my thoughts on those areas:
Vine: I WOULD KILL TO BE VINE FAMOUS. My life is kind of a joke right now in terms of relationships and friendships, as it always is. I studied away at a small school in New Haven for undergrad and grad (no, this is not some cheeky attempt at stating that I went to Yale), and I made great, life-long friendships. The problem, however, is that essentially none of them live close enough to me to brainstorm and film Vines when inspiration strikes, and the friends that do live close enough are too serious about life, in a good way, to participate in such an activity.
Don’t even get me started about how difficult it is to make new friends as a post-grad adult. (Hint: it is the literal worst thing ever.)
GoPro: (See, Vine.)
I get so distracted and have a variety of loud thoughts all of the time that I cannot stay focused long enough on any one item, and that’s why writing is hard. Well, that, along with finding inspiration and finding your voice. For me, inspiration is Ellen DeGeneres and Mindy Kaling. Both of these strong women represent what it means to be yourself in a world telling you to be anyone else. That is so inspiring. Aside from her humanitarian approach with life, I want to mimic Ellen’s ability to make celebrities do insanely hilarious, out of their comfort zone activities. (Actually, she does this with non-celebrities as well, so, really, no one is safe.) Mindy has a way of seeming self-deprecating, but actually she is being a phenomenal feminist. Conveniently enough, I recently finished reading Ellen’s Seriously… I’m Kidding and Mindy’s Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me (And Other Concerns), and they both focus more on observational and life experience humor and less on shock value. Why is this a dying genre within comedy?
My voice, I’ve been told (because I just, right now while writing this, asked my best friend), is tenor, warm, familiar, safe… aka slightly feminine, but that’s not what I meant about finding your voice. My writing voice is very candid, like a conversation. (This writing style has definitely led to receiving less than desirable grades on academic papers, so tread lightly.) Like Ellen, I don’t understand the need to use pretentious vocabulary in writing. I want my friends to read what I write and I want everyone to be my friend, so it makes sense for me to write in this candid way. (I have a real sibling complex, I guess.)
Anyway, I am tired of my personal excuses for not writing (and people who don’t put a new roll of toilet paper on the roll holder but just leave it on the old roll, like WHY???), so I am going to, finally, start again. This time, however, I am going into to this with very little expectation. We’ll see how this goes.
Wish me luck!